I'm sick of it!!!

I don't know how to be strong anymore. I am sick of being told it's all in my head. I am sick of being told I am over reacting. I'm sick of being told everything is my fault. I don't understand how someone can claim to love someone so much, but make them feel so insignificant. I do not believe anything is happening behind my back, but I DO feel like there are some things I do not know. I'm sick of feeling like I am crazy. I'm sick of being the one who has to deal with ALL of the responibility alone. I love my kids, but there are times I wish I could some and go as I please. I feel like I never get a break or even a few minutes to myself anymore. I'm sick of crying. I'm sick of loving someone so much that it hurts, but not feeling even HALF of that love back. I guess what I am trying to say is that I am just sick of it all!

it's ALWAYS something

Why is it when I think things are FINALLY going great... they start to roll down hill again? I really thought Pete and I had gotten past all our major issues and now here they are... popping back up. I am so sick of the back and shit BULLSHIT that always seems to creep up. Of course... I will be blamed and I will be told I am overreacting, but it's really not all me. I am sick of being told how much me and Kenley are missed, but then when there is time to spend time with us... something just happens to "pop" up. Seeing as he didn't see us today and he won't see us tomorrow... it'll be over a week until he does. I don't know how anyone can go a week without seeing their child when they only live a few miles away. Regardless of the situation.. I would go out of my way to see my kids... even if it was only for a few hours. Sorry about bitching... I really just needed to get that off my chest. I could say more, but I think it'll just make me more mad!