FAIL!!!

Well to start off... I had a great time grabbing dinner with my highschool buds. I haven't seen a lot of them in quite a while so catching up was really nice.

Now to the FAIL part. I went out to a bar/club last night. I thought getting out and being around a bunch of people would help keep my mind off things. There was an 80's style band that was awesome so I figured I would have a great time. I wasn't drinking since I breastfeed and I didn't have enough milked pumped. Anyways... my friend was drinking, so I was pretty much just sitting around. Everywhere I looked I saw couples and I about lost it. I just wanted to go home, but I knew it was my friends first time there and i didn't want to ruin her time. Once I took her home and got back to my house I just broke down. This wasn't how the night was supposed to go. I miss Pete so much... more then I thought I would. I wish things were different. I refuse to sit here and blame everything on him because I did things wrong too, but this is so wrong. It shouldn't be this way. UGH!