Sometimes I feel so alone!!!

I know that I can't have someone with me 24/7, but there are days that I just feel extremely alone!!! I feel like when I got pregnant most people just disappeared and no one really gave a damn... Pete included. Now some people are coming around, but I am kind of annoyed that they weren't there for me for 9 months that I don't really have a strong urge to spend time with them now. The people I was the closest to during my pregnancy were the girls I met on the What To Expect forums. THANK GOD FOR THEM!!! I still talk to many of them and would lose my mind without having them to talk to. I wish some of them lived closer to me so I would have someone to spend time with. I hate sitting at home alone all day with 2 kids and no adult conversation ANYWHERE!!! I need more civilized conversations and not the ones where I have to try and figure out what is being said... gotta love 2 year olds!!!

Me and Pete have not had a fight in  a week... which is great for us. I know to most people that isn't long at all, but for me and him thats like a lifetime. I know most people do not agree that I should even come close to giving him a second chance, but its my life and my decision. If it goes bad again the I have no one to blame but myself. Things are going good right now... dont rain on my parade. I just wish he would realize I need him here more and make more of an effort, but I am trying to be patient and let things happen as they may.

On a totally seperate note... I wish it would stop being so dang hot so I could take the kiddos up to the state fair. I know there isn't much there that they could do, but I love the FOOD!!! Maybe I can convince someone to go up there with me next week... HMMMMM!!!