SORRY I'VE BEEN M.I.A.

     So I know I have no been on here in FOREVER to post a new blog. Aiden DESTROYED my computer cord and since I only have a laptop it is dead. BOOO!!!! Dad said he would order me a new one tomorrow so I promise I will be back to my semi daily posts... HOPEFULLY!!!
     Nothing is really new I guess. Mom traded my VW Bug in to buy herself a brand new Mustang. It's not all bad though... I got her Cobalt which is GREAT. It's a 4 door car which I desperately needed. A 2 door car, with 2 kids just wasn't working out so well. I will miss the Bug... especially the covertible part, but sometimes you have to do what you have to do.
     Aiden has hit the terrible 2's with VEGENCE!!! It has gotten worse in the last few weeks since Kenley has been born. He will NOT listen to me at all... especially when it's just the 3 of us at home. He acts up the most when I am feeding Kenley because he knows I can not go after him. I am staying strong and doing my best and I REALLY hope it gets better soon, but who knows. At least he is good with his sister. He even told me he likes her the other day.... LOL! He said he doesn't love her yet though... LOL!!! 2 year old minds kill me.
     Kenley turned 1 month today. I can't believe it. I know it's not that long, but I feel like just yesterday I was finding out I was pregnant. I swear... when you don't expect it, time goes WAY to fast. Wish it would have gone this fast when I was pregnant and waiting to meet my beautiful little woman. I can't believe she has changed so much in just a month. She is getting chunky and I absolutely LOVE it. I love kissing those chubby cheeks of hers!!! =]
     Things with Pete have been VERY up and down... more up this past week. I feel like I just can't get over how he treated me during my pregnancy, no matter how hard I try. He has apologized and showed me that he can be VERY helpful, but I just feel like it's not enough. I am doing my best not to fight with him and things have been on the up's. LOL! He is great with BOTH Aiden and Kenley, so I guess I shouldn't complain. Aiden ADORES him too. Makes me somewhat happy... most of the time. I just hope I can get past all this so maybe me and him can have a future. We both want to try and make this work (I don't care what anyone says), but all I can think of is him walking away again. I need to just take things day by day. It isn't helping that I don't fully trust him yet and he doesn't have a cell right now. He was supposed to give me his house number, but didn't/forgot... so I have NO way to get ahold of him. PLUS... he hasn't called to check on us, which isn't like him. We had a great weekend and now nothing, so OF COURSE... my mind starts to go HAY WIRE. I'll never change in that aspect.
     I am so ready to be able to fit in my "normal" clothes again. Most of the clothes I have been wearing the last month are my maternity clothes(some normal shirts), but I want to wear "normal" jeans. I tried a pair of shorts on... but it wasn't happening. I know I may never be that size again, but it's getting me down since I don't have the money to buy any clothes and HAVE to stay in maternity clothes. I REALLY hope at my 6 week appointment my dr says all is well and I can start to exercise. I ended up SMALLER after Aiden so I think I am expecting that to happen again... even though I'm not sure it will. I gained MORE weight with Kenley then I did with Bub.
     Well that's all I have for now. Hopefully it won't take to long for my new computer cord to come in and I can post again soon. Or maybe when my dad goes to bed/isn't home, I'll use his computer and post again. You know how quickly things can change with 2 youngins!!! =]