I'm just a momma...: feel like I've neglected my blog!!!

I just wrote a post on Friday, but I feel like I have been going to long without updating my blog. I am going to do my best from now on to keep up with it, but with 2 kiddos... its easier said then done.

My little girl is changing so much and getting so big. Where is the time running off to? She is smiling more, playing more, "talking" to us more... she's getting to the age where is interacts and I am having so much fun with her. Saturday was a HORRIBLE day for her. All she wanted to do was scream... all day... unless she was being held and rocked. It was horrible. Thank GOD Pete was here or I might have lost my mind here alone. It only lasted the one day and she was back to her beautiful, smiley self the next morning. I think my poor baby was having a hard time going potty and it was hurting her. Broke my heart. Thursday is Kenley's 2 month well baby checkup. I have mixed emotions about it. I am excited to see how much she has grown and how she is doing, but I HATE the fact that she has to get shots. I feel horrible standing there while someone sticks needles into my little babies legs. BOOO!!! Hopefully they won't take forever and they'll get the shots done before Pete has to leave for work. I just hope everything with her is going/growing(lol) like it's supposed to and that I get a PERFECT report back from her doctor. I haven't noticed anything not going well, so I'm not too worried!!! =]

Aiden is still being himself... nothing has changed there. I swear, when he hit the terrible 2's... he hit them with enough force to knock over an elephant. He is just plain ROTTEN! He doesn't listen very well and gets into EVERYTHING. I am doing the best I can, but with Kenley AND Aiden I get overwhelmed quite a bit when I am here alone. I swear... Aiden always decides to act up when I am in the middle of nursing his sister. LOL! He can be in the other room and it's like he just senses it... LOL! He still has his moments when he is sweet.... usually in the mornings. He LOVES to check on his sister and sing her Twinkle Twinkle. He HATES when she cries and makes sure someone helps her when she does. He will cuddle up to me every once in a while too... which is one of the things I miss the most about when he was a baby. I can't belive my little man is already over 2 years old. I remember back when I thought he was never going to walk or talk or HECK even CRAWL... and now he is doing it all!!!

Things with Pete are going good as well. Are biggest problem is we just don't talk to each other. I talk to him more then he talks to me and it gets REALLY frustrating. He says I am hard to talk to and I'm sure I am, but if he wants this to work... he has to open up to me. He has been getting better at it and he is LIGHT YEARS from where he was, but I just hope it continues to get better, so things don't just go back to the way they were. I just can't believe I have known him for over a year and we are just now REALLY getting to know each other. NO, we did't do things the "correct" way. Kenley wasn't planned and we had only known each other a few months, but we are working are butts off to make it better now... so NOBODY has the right to judge us. There is still a TON that we need to work on, but it will take time and I have plenty of it, so I'm taking my time.

I am FINALLY getting back to feeling like myself. Yes, I still have the "pooch" in the front of my belly, but I am only 9lbs from my pre-prego wait. It bothered me for a while that I couldn't fit back into my pre-prego jeans, but I finally just realized that it may NEVER happen and I think I am FINALLY ok with that. My sister gave me some jeans that I feel GREAT in, so now I just need to go and get me some shirts that will make me feel the same way. I have been STILL wearing a lot of my maternity shirts, since I am breastfeeding and my "girls" are INSANE!!! LOL! I think the main reason I haven't felt like myself is because of the breastfeeding. It's hard for your body to feel like your OWN when it's being used to feed someone else. I am so glad that breastfeeding has gone as great as it has and I have had no problems feeding Kenley, but it's hard to feel like yourself while doing it. Maybe that's just my feelings on it, but that's just how I feel. I hope I continue to feel this way about myself and I don't start looking down on myself again. Pete has been helping me feel good too, so it's been really nice.