trying to stay optimistic...

     So things with me and Pete have been REALLY up and down this week. I accused him of things, he got mad, and it all went downhill from there. Today has been much better and I am PRAYING that they continue. He's spending the ENTIRE weekend with us, with NOTHING planned but laying around and watching football and OF COURSE the Trueblood finale on Sunday. We haven't had days like this since before he started working and I've missed it. I really don't want to lose him, but if things start getting bad again... I dont think I can take it anymore. I'm doing my best not to worry about things getting bad and simply focus on the fact that its getting better. I hope he really does feel the way he says he does. I just hope he's not like some guys from my past and saying what he knows I want to hear.
     On a happy note... my BEAUTIFUL baby girl is 2 months old today. OMG... how did that happen? I feel like yesterday I was pregnant. Why is it you are pregnant for 9 LONG months and they drag on and on... but then you have the baby and time flies? I dont know about everyone else, but I wish it happened the other way around!!!! I DONT WANT HER TO GROW UP!!!